reset

i kept thinking about what i wanted to talk about in my first blog of the new year

i had a lot of themes:

20/20 vision,

the decade of new beginnings,

how God is going to bless us DOUBLE.

but eventually I settled on the idea of ‘reset’.

the last ten years of my life

i spent in “pain”

i had children in pain

i experienced painful challenges 

i’ve experienced hardship

and through the challenges

i’ve failed a lot,

way more than i anticipated.

now, more than ever, I feel a ‘reset’ for this next chapter.

a reset on my outlook…

destroying every idea of things that i thought weren’t “for me”…

tackling doubt

overcoming fear

stepping into unknown territories claiming victory… 

tapping into my resiliency.

a reset on my love life…

letting go of every painful memory

ready to embrace fully

confidently and freely

the new love that is present,

capable,

enduring,

and that thanks God that they have a chance 

to dispel and replace 

each painful memory

with newness and a fresh start.

a reset on my beliefs…

realizing that the Grace bestowed to me

is the grace that I’m responsible to walk out daily…

understanding that the love of God 

encompasses all

and if I am a recipient of that love…

then, no experience

no setback

no disappointment

no rumor

no fear

no outside force

no wicked imaginations

no haters

no failure…NOTHING

can change God’s love for me

nor His ‘reset’ for my life.

so when you see me

moving different

walking out this love thing…

embracing new ideas…

youthfully believing…

know that that’s the ‘reset’.

a new day

to believe again

to love again

to put to use what i’ve learned

so that to LIVE on purpose for the first time in my life.

time is moving on

and the years have been restored.

I’m coming for everything that’s mine

unapologetically.